A lovely Friday evening but health hit the s**t last night

The title tells it all, a mix of the good and to be honest very scary concerns over my health.

Friday evening was a fantastic evening, my sister come down and for her birthday. We went for a Mexican meal, then of to see “bad” a Michael Jackson tribute act, then back to the salsa bar for cocktails and then home for a natter and bed.

Saturday we went shopping and treated ourselves to a full English breakfast, then we traded stuff in a shop, Jeanette some mobiles and me some ps3 and WII games (I got a £79 trade in voucher)

Friday was fun, we both got chatted up lots and my sister said so many men were checking me out lol.

What w3as nice was Jeanette not getting wasted as she can do this, I never judge her as I used to do the same, as we are close I spoke about it to her the last time she was at mine.

She told me that she was glad I told her. As she knew I cared and also made her think why do I do this?

I told I had and also self harmed and taken drugs and had lots of promiscuous sex because I was very unhappy inside.

She had drank as she did due to her relationship and realised she was unhappy.

We spoke about this and her fear that she would not meet anyone else I told her that she is still an attractive woman and more importantly a good person.

Also it is better to be single then hang onto an unhappy and unhealthy relationship.

So I think he is going soon!

Also she had a great chat with me and asked did I think some trans - women were borderline trannies and I think yes due to self medication easier to get I am alarmed at the numbers of transsexual women who display trannie traits and sound so much in denial and will not have real counselling and have to many masculine traits (not physical features) but a masculine outlook on life, yes there is a difference in how men and women see the world.

I do find the whole trans scene so shallow at times and you dont dare look nice or the whole bitchiness comes out.

Lat one, "you didnt tell me you was getting glammed up"!

excuse me, I lived in PJs and tracksuit bottoms for 5 months, I said sod it, I will now double my glam efforts!

Health issues

Well it started Saturday after Jeanette had gone home and the first signs were a shaking inside and being very cold. At first I thought perhaps food poisoning as I had muscles as a starter on Friday.

Then I was sick, dihreaha, numb hands and feet, headaches and tiredness.

I wrapped up in layers took some codeine tablets and went to bed.

I woke after 3 hours sleep at 11, and drank lots of fluids and read until 3am and feel asleep.

I am still very scared as recovering very slowly; I am seeing my GP tomorrow and at hospital on Wednesday.

I did phone Jeanette and told her as I had promised that I would always be honest with her over my health.

Dad can f**k off

My sister had unknown to me told my dad my health issues and did apologise after I said no way, he does not have an insight into my life and she will respect my wishes.

I am taking a hard-line with my dad and if we ever talk again I will tell him some home truths

But my dad did admit to my sister the “he has a chip” (referring to me!) to a so called ex friend (you know who you are!) and she agreed with him,

I do pick them!

So sorry to Caroline and Lisa that I have not been online lately as much, I hope to be better soon.

I am still hoping to get my next tattoo on Tuesday.

Blessed be everyone.

xx