Shopping, Birthday plans and other life activities

I went to hospital for my latest chemo treatment and had it delayed to next week.

The weighing in session showed that I had lost 5kg since my last weigh in and left me 49.5 kilos about 7 stone 10 pounds and very underweight.

I have also been very tired and getting out of breath a lot.

The doctor explained that this was due to the severe weight loss and said I was doing everything right in my diet, plenty of carbs, fat, content and fruit and making sure that I was not dehydrated (hence lots of night toilet runs!)

She sent me for an x-ray to make sure the medication was not having an adverse effect and everything come through ok.

So we will see where I am next week and if I am still losing weight, my treatment will stop as she said that my quality of life was becoming very poor and to be honest it is!

As usual I am always impressed with the care and concern of the nurses and doctors at the hospital they really are so lovely.

It is not all bad news.

To counter the bad side effects, I was thinking of the positive things that have happened to me since I have been diagnosed with cancer and there are so many positives.

I now have a wonderful and close relationship with my sister, this would not have happened otherwise, as I saw petty differences as something that was not important anymore.

With this I have the love and care of 2 wonderful nieces and I am so proud of them both.

I have been working for 30 years (scary when I write that!)

I now have a lovely council flat with cheaper rent and next month I get “a secured housing status” this means if I am unemployed my rent and rates will be paid.

I now have no debt, no credit cards, and no loans and have built up a nice little nest egg in my savings account, I have always been good with money, but got even better as last year I had to plan for the future.

I have got back to my pagan/wiccan ways and enjoying my meditations and spirit walks so much.

I value life so much more.

I don’t take for granted small things now, even walking to the local shop, when this has been a struggle you value such a simple every day task.

I am writing and drawing again.

I have thought about what I want to do with the rest of my life work wise and self development wise.

I have stopped being scared of going to a pub on my own, I am going to rebuild my social life and will go to some events on my own, and I will get talking to people.

I am going to Australia next year and planning a trip to Egypt the year after.

I am going to the Whitby Goth weekend.

Lastly I have found my inner strength.

Flowers to a special sister

I sent Jeanette some flowers this week to say thank you to a special sister and also because I feel my dad forgets that last year she had a hysterectomy, he goes on about me too late now as I won’t have anything to do with him and if I ever do speak to him again I will tell him some blunt home truths.

He never sends Jeanette flowers or asks how she is and my sister is so generous and unselfish with her love and demands nothing back.

Birthday update, the tickets for “Bad” the Michael Jackson tribute show have come through, and front row seats! I booked us into a salsa bar/restaurant for a pre show meal and it back there after for post show cocktails.

The perfect eyebrow shaper

I had to find a new beauty shop since I moved and struck gold at new local one, they mainly do nails (I will those done after chemo) but do also shape eyebrows thought not tinting.

I got my eyebrow arch back and that gothic look again, I use a pencil(s) for my colour and this suits me as I can go from brown to black to purple etc.

I have bought some lovely Victorian calf boots, just ideal to go with my long gothic skirts and even pencil dresses.

Also a pencil skirt style dress and lots more really and it’s been fun!

Cinema trip

I am of to see “the wolf man” this week and it looks like a nice tribute to Lon Chaney JNR, I remember watching those old films as a kid and am looking forward to this film.

The flat is looking nice with more pictures up, my lovely mirror and shelves, more work to be done next month!.

Well that’s me for now.

Peace and love and blessed be

Lucy