Back on track

I feel like I have been away for so long, but things have settled down for me, dates certain and the road ahead is clearer, still a few barriers, but I looked at those and in my opinion viewed self imposed emotional and mental barriers to physical barriers and even other things I can’t control like peoples view of me, so you could say a lot has happened and there is a lot more to come.

Redundancy settlement and final work date.

Yes it has now been settled, work finally realised that it was not in my best interests to carry on working there and if I was struggling on six hours a week, then full time would be too much for me, plus I went of sick for a month to help them make up their mind, ok I could have worked if I pushed myself, but hey the weather was nice and the seafront was a better option than a office.

I got a very nice settlement, cheque now being written, my final working day is 30^th September, I would normally have worked a 11 week notice period, but to be Fair to the council they are paying me this to me now as they are considering my health, I have requested cheque for my lump sum and my 11 weeks pay and 14 days holiday leave to be paid into my bank account.

Now I am not in limbo in one aspect of my life, I know the road ahead in my work/financial path.

I can now talk to housing about my benefit claims and other things I am entitled to, I have no problems claiming at all, I have been working since June 1979 and never been unemployed.

Health path

I had a appointment to see the oncology doctor last week and have a scan booked in for 2 weeks time, with a follow up doctor’s appointment, my blood tests where 50/50 nothing to abnormal but also low in white blood cells.

I am still getting stomach pains, but after scan perhaps I can get on with life, and it is/was the stress of the whole work situation. So my astrologer was right about my payment, it come in September! I never expected it that early.

What does a girl do with a lump sum?

Well first I look at what is the level I can have in savings before I can claim benefits, hence the split part as a cheque and the rest into my bank account.

I also looked at things I wanted in life and cost, like paying for my SRS would have taken out 90% of my nest egg and I did not feel comfortable with that, I want a rainy day nest egg, or also something to help out my sister or nieces if the need comes up.

So I looked at breast augmentation (Boob job as it more known as) My next appointment at the GIC is on 27^th September, so as well as pressing home my SRS date and I now feel this will be Jan/march 2011 I want to see how my boob op referral is going, if it is going well and it is a matter of waiting a few months I will hang on, however if is going to be appealed and drag on and on then...... you must know me by now I get what I want.

I had a good referral from a friend to a private clinic that does plastic surgery and made an appointment for a boob job.

I have just had my first pre screen appointment to check medical history and to look at prices and how the process works.

I was honest and explained that I am hopeful of a NHS job but will know the outcome after 27^th September, but the price given to me was no problem.

She was fine with this and has made me an appointment to see the surgeon who will perform my procedure (should I go ahead) on 5^th October, I can always cancel if I am going NHS path.

I have asked my friend Karen to come with me, as a second opinion is what I feel I need, I will be trying on different bras with the sizes avaible to me, and she make sure I don’t go to mad and go DDD and look like Lola form Euro trash (R.I.P) Lola.

Why a boob job?

I am a respectable B cup at the moment and with the help of ultra bra I get a good cleavage, but I want to a bigger bust as simple as that and I also like flaunting my feminity, I will control as much as my gender surgery as possible, genital hair removal and finishing of my face electrolysis.

The last op will be a nose job, I am hopeful of a throat surgery on the NHS.

So that is another part of my life planned out.

Other body modifications

I now have four facial piercings and had my 8^th tattoo finished and got the for the rest of my left arm planned out, poison Ivy on my inner lower arm and the thorns to wrap around and up my arm with roses budding etc.

My right arm will be my “legend arm, Bette page, Marilyn Monroe etc, should be getting my Marilyn Monroe tattoo in November.

So that is another part planned.

Courses and other plans ahead.

I can’t really enrol l on a long term training course due to my upcoming SRS date, but I have applied for a short term course (4 weeks about body image and advising on it).

I have been writing my private blog and self help guide.

I am also hoping to conquer the rejection insecurity I have.

More about that in my next blog.

But overall I am here and fighting.