It’s been a while since I last blogged

I do have a few to write, this one feels like a random blog, well apart from my scribbling in my book of shadows.

So what has been happening since I last wrote? I have been back at work in my “phased return” It has been ok, A pleasant department and easy duties to do, already I hate it, the daily drudge of the 9-5 rat race is not just me anymore, I feel like I am being put back into a cage.

The famous “talent pool” or as it’s been termed “the sludge pool”

I won’t go into too much detail in this blog about what the talent pool is, as I covered it in my previous blogs, I had a meeting with the lady who runs it, for a various reasons, to outline more detail, and to give me this from to list my skills and previous experience.

I did ask about redundancy and got a interesting answer, I was told that the council has no money so is very reluctant to offer redundancies and believe that everyone can be retrained or put into another vacant post, and thus the council does not advertise externally for any more jobs, well expect for the highly paid consultants (talk about double standards)!

I filled in my form with a total lack of enthusiasm and did put down my desired jobs:

· Training officer for equality and diversity

· Big brother presenter (well I was asked what roles I felt where suitable for me)

I was also told that if after 2 months I had not applied for any posts they felt was suitable for me that they would ask me why.

I decided I am going to have to fight for my freedom and made an appointment to see my doctor, I asked him if he would support my claim for an ill health retirement bid and he said he would.

He said that I have made a very remarkable and rare recovery and I did suggest that by not being stressed at work I would have a longer life expectancy and I have been depressed since I been back at work.

I did have a day of sick last week and will have a regular sick pattern, if I am going to go for an ill retirement bid, then I got to be of ill!

If I had any doubts

Well listen to this, I was having a chat with my acting manager and she told me about her families reaction when she told them I was working in her department (in other words “the transsexual) and also how her mother asked why would I be called “her” when I had not had “ the op” yet I kid you not, I just sat there in silence and decided not to react, but I am going to talk to her on Monday, I will tell her it is totally inappropriate in what she said to me, and why is she telling people about me, does she tell any new employee? And I will also use this in my bid for ill health, so no I don’t feel guilty.

A finished tattoo and my first comment on my facial piercings

I got my ISIS tattoo finished and I do love it.

As I was in the work canteen, a woman walked up to me, pointed at my facial piercings and said “what the fuck are those” I said “its called fucking expressing myself, and while we’re on the subject what the fuck are you wearing” as I walked of “I said we can be rude if we want to”

Her comments have encouraged me to get more facial piercings’, I am a stubborn cow.

Future blogs

A friend’s weekend visit, I now realise why I don’t do relationships, where has some of my msn “friends” gone.