castles

It has been such a long time since I have last posted a blog, as my title says “posted” It does not mean I have left this blogging thing behind me.

A mix of a social life suddenly appearing on my horizon took most of my time, but mainly it put me into a happier place, and for some reason I can’t write as well when I am happy.
Therefore as I am writing and posting again I have once again fallen back into the comforting and safe feeling of pesimission, no happy ending for this girl, and really wasn’t this what I am all about?

Also my pains have started to come back again in my stomach mixed with tiredness and last night I had an attack that felt like a combination of a mike Tyson punch to my lower stomach and my insides being gripped and twisted by a hulk Hogan choke hold, although I would rather he had gripped my throat.
With all this starting up again I felt it was time to write again and also I really do want to get cancer back this time, I feel I had enough of trying, I have nothing else to prove, and I am not going to have a relationship, always be fucked up and in so many ways I feel I have hit a wall in my life.

I feel like in so many ways this is a new introduction to a new list of blogs, I feel I have such a lot of feelings and angst to get out that a quick introduction blog is in order.
A quick list of things to write about.

New organisms
Fetish life and how I love it
Meeting nice people
Building sandcastles out of water (this be my next one as it as in many ways put me where I am now)
And many more.